Our stories

August 27, 2010 § 4 Comments


My story is far beyond what anyone can comprehend. The subjective experience can never entirely be shared in its complete emotional state.

A tweet from TWLOHA

“We have the right and the obligation to tell old stories in our own way, because they are our stories.” – Neil Gaiman


Multatuli, 27-8-2010

Pasquale, I hope you stay strong.


Just keep going

August 18, 2010 § 4 Comments

Once upon a time there’s this person who badly wanted something. For years that person lived and breathed the dream, prayed like nothing else mattered. He didn’t dare of thinking what if he couldn’t achieve it because he knew he’d simply gone crazy. He’s a mad man, he’s obsessed. He worked and worked, but everything still seems impossible. Everything seems so far away.

He wanted it badly, but the road was getting tougher and many didn’t believe in him. He was unsure, not confident, tormented by fears and doubts, but there’s a whispering voice that kept telling him, “Just keep going, keep being hungry, keep wanting it so bad that it hurts.”

So he kept going… He knew he couldn’t do it alone, so he prayed and asked for The Divine to intervene. He knew The Divine wouldn’t give him anything, if he couldn’t show the universe that he deserved it. So he kept praying and working. He learned that patience didn’t just mean that he must accept his temporary loss and difficulties, but that he must have the commitment and consistence in his struggle so that he may someday win.

And one day… his wish was granted, he eventually got what he’d always wanted and worked for.

And it’s not a full circle yet, he kept wanting other things to achieve, he chased more dreams. But now he knows, that in his hardest time  he must remember what the voice tells him: “Just keep going…”

Ajeng, 18-8-2010

*…remembering a journey. Thank you to “The Professor”, Mba Nani for the beautiful reminder. Inspired by the journey all Warriors of The Light must take.


A shot from the blackboard

August 16, 2010 § Leave a comment

Dear all,

Just a small shot of a blackboard at http://looklistenfeel.tumblr.com , a place for celebrating lives, colours, and your senses.

Use your senses. Look. Listen. Feel.

Be sure to look around!

– Posting goodness from https://freedocere.wordpress.com

Climbing your mountain

August 14, 2010 § 8 Comments

I don’t normally re-blog someone else’s content.. But this is too brilliant to miss, and I want to make this message a part of my journey…. Manual for climbing mountains, by Paulo Coelho, from his blog

A] Choose the mountain you want to climb: don’t pay attention to what other people say, such as “that one’s more beautiful” or “this one’s easier”. You’ll be spending lots of energy and enthusiasm to reach your objective, so you’re the only one responsible and you should be sure of what you’re doing.

B] Know how to get close to it: mountains are often seen from far off – beautiful, interesting, full of challenges. But what happens when we try to draw closer? Roads run all around them, flowers grow between you and your objective, what seemed so clear on the map is tough in real life. So try all the paths and all the tracks until eventually one day you’re standing in front of the top that you yearn to reach.

C] Learn from someone who has already been up there: no matter how unique you feel, there is always someone who has had the same dream before you and ended up leaving marks that can make your journey easier; places to hang the rope, trails, broken branches to make the walking easier. The climb is yours, so is the responsibility, but don’t forget that the experience of others can help a lot.

D] When seen up close, dangers are controllable: when you begin to climb the mountain of your dreams, pay attention to the surroundings. There are cliffs, of course. There are almost imperceptible cracks in the mountain rock. There are stones so polished by storms that they have become as slippery as ice. But if you know where you are placing each footstep, you will notice the traps and how to get around them.

E] The landscape changes, so enjoy it: of course, you have to have an objective in mind – to reach the top. But as you are going up, more things can be seen, and it’s no bother to stop now and again and enjoy the panorama around you. At every meter conquered, you can see a little further, so use this to discover things that you still had not noticed.

F] Respect your body: you can only climb a mountain if you give your body the attention it deserves. You have all the time that life grants you, as long as you walk without demanding what can’t be granted. If you go too fast you will grow tired and give up half way there. If you go too slow, night will fall and you will be lost. Enjoy the scenery, take delight in the cool spring water and the fruit that nature generously offers you, but keep on walking.

G] Respect your soul: don’t keep repeating “I’m going to make it”. Your soul already knows that, what it needs is to use the long journey to be able to grow, stretch along the horizon, touch the sky. An obsession does not help you at all to reach your objective, and even ends up taking the pleasure out of the climb. But pay attention: also, don’t keep saying “it’s harder than I thought”, because that will make you lose your inner strength.

H] Be prepared to climb one kilometer more: the way up to the top of the mountain is always longer than you think. Don’t fool yourself, the moment will arrive when what seemed so near is still very far. But since you were prepared to go beyond, this is not really a problem.

I] Be happy when you reach the top: cry, clap your hands, shout to the four winds that you did it, let the wind – the wind is always blowing up there – purify your mind, refresh your tired and sweaty feet, open your eyes, clean the dust from your heart. It feels so good, what was just a dream before, a distant vision, is now part of your life, you did it!

Canyon Landscape, Utah Photograph by Christopher Zimmer from The National Geographic

J] Make a promise: now that you have discovered a force that you were not even aware of, tell yourself that from now on you will use this force for the rest of your days. Preferably, also promise to discover another mountain, and set off on another adventure.

L] Tell your story: yes, tell your story! Give your example. Tell everyone that it’s possible, and other people will then have the courage to face their own mountains.

Got to this just when I needed it the most.

Multatuli. https://freedocere.wordpress.com

The crowd crystals

August 11, 2010 § 2 Comments

Scribbles from The Great Influenza, by John M. Barry:

Elias Canetti in Crowds and Power stated,

crowd crystals, … the small, rigid groups of men, strictly delimited and of great constancy, which serve to precipitate crowds. Their structure is such that they can be comprehended and taken in at a glance. Their unity is more important than their size. Their role must be familiar; people must know what they are there for. … The crowd crystal is constant. … Its members are trained in both action and faith.The clarity, isolation, and constancy of the crystal form an uncanny contrast with the excited flux of the surrounding crowd.”

These are the people who can, and will start a revolution. This cluster of individuals are the ones dissatisfied by the frustration of the system and actually doing something to change it. These are a group of men and women who are not just following their academic flow, moving slowly within the current. They move with their own rhythm, with their own stride and direction. They will revolutionize, and they will make a difference.

Concentric rings of color decorate a crystal found in Albany, Oregon. Photograph by David Boyer. From National Geographic.


How to be alone

August 10, 2010 § 2 Comments

This is a beautiful, beautiful video by Andrea Dorfman, and poet/singer/songwriter, Tanya Davis, “How to be alone”.

“If your heart is bleeding make the best of it”

HOW TO BE ALONE by Tanya Davis

If you are at first lonely, be patient. If you’ve not been alone much, or if when you were, you weren’t okay with it, then just wait. You’ll find it’s fine to be alone once you’re embracing it.

We could start with the acceptable places, the bathroom, the coffee shop, the library. Where you can stall and read the paper, where you can get your caffeine fix and sit and stay there. Where you can browse the stacks and smell the books. You’re not supposed to talk much anyway so it’s safe there.

There’s also the gym. If you’re shy you could hang out with yourself in mirrors, you could put headphones in (guitar stroke).

And there’s public transportation, because we all gotta go places.

And there’s prayer and meditation. No one will think less if you’re hanging with your breath seeking peace and salvation.

Start simple. Things you may have previously (electric guitar plucking) based on your avoid being alone principals.

The lunch counter. Where you will be surrounded by chow-downers. Employees who only have an hour and their spouses work across town and so they — like you — will be alone.

Resist the urge to hang out with your cell phone.

When you are comfortable with eat lunch and run, take yourself out for dinner. A restaurant with linen and silverware. You’re no less intriguing a person when you’re eating solo dessert to cleaning the whipped cream from the dish with your finger. In fact some people at full tables will wish they were where you were.

Go to the movies. Where it is dark and soothing. Alone in your seat amidst a fleeting community.
And then, take yourself out dancing to a club where no one knows you. Stand on the outside of the floor till the lights convince you more and more and the music shows you. Dance like no one’s watching…because, they’re probably not. And, if they are, assume it is with best of human intentions. The way bodies move genuinely to beats is, after all, gorgeous and affecting. Dance until you’re sweating, and beads of perspiration remind you of life’s best things, down your back like a brook of blessings.

Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you.
Go to an unfamiliar city, roam the streets, there’re always statues to talk to and benches made for sitting give strangers a shared existence if only for a minute and these moments can be so uplifting and the conversations you get in by sitting alone on benches might’ve never happened had you not been there by yourself

Society is afraid of alonedom, like lonely hearts are wasting away in basements, like people must have problems if, after a while, nobody is dating them. but lonely is a freedom that breaths easy and weightless and lonely is healing if you make it.

You could stand, swathed by groups and mobs or hold hands with your partner, look both further and farther for the endless quest for company. But no one’s in your head and by the time you translate your thoughts, some essence of them may be lost or perhaps it is just kept.

Perhaps in the interest of loving oneself, perhaps all those sappy slogans from preschool over to high school’s groaning were tokens for holding the lonely at bay. Cuz if you’re happy in your head than solitude is blessed and alone is okay.

It’s okay if no one believes like you. All experience is unique, no one has the same synapses, can’t think like you, for this be releived, keeps things interesting lifes magic things in reach.

And it doesn’t mean you’re not connected, that communitie’s not present, just take the perspective you get from being one person in one head and feel the effects of it. take silence and respect it. if you have an art that needs a practice, stop neglecting it. if your family doesn’t get you, or religious sect is not meant for you, don’t obsess about it.

you could be in an instant surrounded if you needed it
If your heart is bleeding make the best of it
There is heat in freezing, be a testament.

*Just forwarding a great piece of writing through https://freedocere.wordpress.com

A writer

August 10, 2010 § Leave a comment

“A writer should have the precision of a poet and the imagination of a scientist.”

Vladimir Nabakov

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